heat and fire.

It's human's nature. For every single soul on earth is different in their own way though most share certain characteristics. It's taxing, having to change a part of you that is your nature. But for some some reasons, humans work in the weirdest ways.

Sometimes, we do not work in acceptance, and just walk away.

Somehow, I feel that I am in some slow motion tunnel for the past few weeks, waiting for that day to come where I will be completely perfect. Not really actually, maybe, close to perfection. I do not run into the lion's mouth anymore. But, whenever it's time, I run towards the sea, and drown myself in my own. That's how I am coping. Ask me why?! Because I want a better feeling for myself. Not really actually, AGAIN. For someone else perhaps.

Somehow, I feel that I am living in deception. I had to find another way out for myself, another alternative. I had no choice. ( And when they say, life is full of choices, somehow, I feel that it's bullshit now. It's pretty subjective. )

At times, I ask myself whether it was a right decision. Ironically, I do not have an answer to my own question.

However, I bow down to those who have accepted me.