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I swear... AND I SWEAR...

I GOT SO MUCH TO UPDATE!!!

• MOS party night


• Lenne's birthday


• Rooftop Experience


• PEOPLE I HATE


• Upcoming MOMO night

By the end of this week i think.

IT WILL BE A BLAST!

- You still have not know how much I feel for you. You simply rip me into two whenever I see you. A side for you and the other for me. Hear my laughters, see my smiles not my pain and cries.

LIES

You lied.
For I know she is inside of you.
And i know you love her.



-When love and death embrace.

For You

Our paths never met
Our roads never crossed
But what were left were
Flustered minds and broken hearts

Our streams' never a waterfall
Our hearts' never one
And what you were left with were
Lies and more lies

It didn't stood for an eye
But it took one for another
Wrap it up and throw it away
But you came crawling back again

You never show it outside
And you never bring inside out
Scars of discrimination remained
Signs of unconcerns flowed

Rinse it, wash it,
Till your blood runs dry
You'll see more lies flowing from your wounds
Sing it, dance with it,
And you'll never feel the same

Stitch it, sew it,
Threads of aftermath remains
You'll see yourselves flooding with contradictions
Kick it, roll it,
And as the wounds enlarge, you'll be dead

-Clarie


- There's a crystal lake of all the tears I've cried.

what's hot?

This is the movie that I watched with GIRLFRIEND. I tell you. Holly Valance is sooooooooooooooooo HOT!!! OMG!
I myself as a girl find her SUPER HOT. But what about guys? And yes GIRLFRIEND fantasized about her. I rate this, 4 out of 5 thumbs, Sizzling HOT MOVIE!

PLUS!

Well, I had a late night movie with... Ian, Gerrad, Reuben, Chun Hwee, SaraNatasha, Ash and Adam on Friday night/ Saturday Morning. Met Fawwas too! That guy with the beautiful voice!
Step Up was a wonderful movie! Storyline is predictable. Romantic though, with dashes of egoism, jealously and sadness. Must watch okays? (:

Well, I went to school on Thursday with some funny funny dressing la! Started to cam whore!

here
and there...And Azy and Me!

Mr Chewy!And GIRLFRIEND!
I went to Mr Ridwan and Ms Aslina house for our weekly meeting cum Jalan Raya! Ms Aslina can cook leh!
We settled loads of stuff. (: Some things have been finalised! happy happy!Another shot with the big man!

P.S: I will give you a list of ppl I HATE! KEEP CHECKING IN! (:
And yes, these are my memory lanes.

- I wished for no one except you to shelter me from my pain. But, we are so near yet so far.

I drowned in martell

Well, well, well, Saturday night was hell for me! I enjoyed the night man! Met up with Girlfriend, Chun Hwee, Adam, Ian and Joshua. We went to Vivo City and it was really CROWDED!

First thing that caught my eye was....


OMG! SWEETS SWEETS SWEETS!

It was freaking crowded la but still managed to cam-whore! (:

And that is GIRLFRIEND REUBEN and I! I love this pic! One of the nicest pic I have taken. (:We saw a walking directory at Vivo! Freaking funny can? hahahahas. They were like walking and dancing around. Like clowns, takes a lot for a MAN to swallow for doing this job yeah? Cause, MEN ARE KNOWN TO HAVE EGO LARGER THAN THEIR BALLS! (:

Ian went to ask the walking directory where to withdraw money. Cos' we all wanted to eat Carl's Junior!I know la! I am a fucking noob right? Haven't eat Carl's Junior YET. MUST EAT BEFORE I GO THAILAND! Carl's Junior was like FUCKING CROWDED! The queue was VERY LONG. Ian then suggested to go to Habourfront Centre to have Mac.

I hope that I am getting my cam-whoring skills back (:

We went to...

This is to ensure that we don't waste our Saturday night / Sunday Morning!
We chose Martell! hahahas. And I must say Chun Hwee's enemy is BROWN! Mr Chun Hwee! I fucking own you! hahahas! Mr Chun Hwee vomited like fuck at Jln Kayu after we alighted the cab! hahahahas! Mr Chun Hwee can't take brown and I must say that Ian and I were the most sober despite all the " eh.. cheers... drink drink.. tah la tah la!"

More fun I am looking forward to! Before I go Thailand! (:

I came across this which is very very interesting...

• Split
• Swap
• Mix
• Match

hahas. Imagine doing this.

1st: You split the cups
2nd: You swap the different colour cups
3rd: Then you mix the many cups.
4th: Then you match the cups together that you like.

Then your husbands and boyfriends will be like "whao! you look sexy!" (:

-Just one last dance, before we say goodbye for I know, tomorrow I'll lose the one I love

*Ouch*

It was indeed a horrible day for me.

What more can you expect me to feel when I had to go for TWO jabs for my Thailand trip?

I have to fill in the form before I proceed for my jabs!

Edwin, can't you see that I am cam-whoring? Don't disturb la!

Finally, I have the camera by myself.

Busy people doing busy stuff! (:

Something to entertain you guys! (:



-I will sell my soul just for you to stay

It's my turn

It's been a while since everything started and ended.

I will be waiting for the end. Will this really end? When will it come to an end?
If it ends, it is a start of a new beginning.

I just realised that I received my retribution. The exact month and dates that I used to hurt a person, the person that I hurt so much, Nicholas. hahas. If he is happens to read this... please do be glad that this is happening to me. You know why? Cos' I know you hate me. (: But maybe not that much now yeah?

I think I am getting all emotional at things that are happening in my life.

nvm. Whatever it is, I know I have great friends around me.

MY NEW WALLPAPER! (:


As you can see,Girlfriend and Chun Hwee cut their hair.

I then decided to cam-whore with Chun Hwee and Girlfriend before I go and cut my hair.

Before I cut my hair.. it looked soooooo

Heavy!
And after I cut...
And do you guys realise of my huge nose? yea. it became bigger after not sleeping the night before and.. after nights of tearing PLUS haze? lols!

As you can see.. my fringe is shorter, hair is LIGHTER and it has MORE LAYERS! I simply love it! But then ar... the stupid girl took 20-25 MINUTES TO CUT MY HAIR. And to think I didn't sleep the night before, I was knocking myself to sleep! It's such a blessing that I DID NOT DROOL!

AND... NO MORE SPLITENDS! (:

3 of us... cam-whoring in macs! (:

Well, wanna know what is happening? Wanna know how am I feeling?

I AM FEELING ALL FED UP AND PISSED OFF and not forgetting... when I have this two emotions together... I'll get...

BITCHY

KAN NI NA BEI CHAO CHEE BYE! I TELL YOU GUYS... I SI BEI HOT AR!!!!

KAN NI NA BU EH...

Apparently, most people know that I AM SINGLE. So... what does being SINGLE MEAN?
From from THE SOURCES that I GATHERED...

From Dictionary.com and Wikipedia:

If I anyone think that I am fabricating the sources, there is a link to the words "dictionary" and "wikipedia". Now you know what is the meaning of being single?

I AM A SINGLE WOMAN UNDERSTAND?!

I walked out on him. He is out of my life. As much as we agree to be friends. HE IS DOING MORE THAN A FRIEND DOES.

He calls me, and asks me "where are you? with who?" And when I told him I AM OUTSIDE and I AM WITH MY FRIENDS.
He will ask the same stuff again.

And when I tell you what I am doing. For example, "ohh.. I am drinking with my friends."
What is your reaction? What will you do?

And the next thing I know, you will be meeting MY FRIENDS and start threatening (Oops! typo error)TALKING to them.

Yes. To think that you have change. Or rather SAID THAT YOU WERE A CHANGED MAN. If you want the whole world to know about your blog. I'll help you to advertise it HERE! Cos' obviously, I have more people viewing my blog compared your blog. AND.. yes.. IF YOU WERE A CHANGED MAN... Oh yes, I admit that you WERE CHANGED. Yes Yes Yes, I played a part in changing you in the past. BUT LOOK AT NOW. You changed even more. You seem to be a DESPERATE! The reason why I am backing off from you know it that, you don't seem to have control of yourself. I don't listen to what YOU SAID. But I choose to SEE YOUR ACTIONS. And I guess my judgement is no wrong.

Pertaining towards your post dated on the 27th October 2006:
I guess you didn't know what you were doing. And I guess you are just out here in runing me? hahas. No worries. The whole world can know what is going on and YES! Everyone will take pity on you. But those people who see things in both ways like me, wil actually ask, WHAT TRIGGER ALL THESE? hahas. YES. Excuses of your IMF blah blah blah... But you know what? I am as busy as you are. You just do not know what I am going through blah blah blah. I DO NOT NEED A ELDER BROTHER IN A RELATIONSHIP. But I need someone who dote on me. YES! Everyone can see how much you love me. Fetch me of school. blah blah blah. Carry me on your back and walk across the field. If everyone is gonna place the blame on me...

FUCK IT!

I don't give a shit. Cos' things will just wear off. I am tired of running this marathon and I need a break from everything. Yes. "we made mistakes in life but it never too late to correct it.." and yes, IF I AM THE MISTAKE, so be it. I am fine with my life NOW. I am loving my life.

And your msg back dated on the 31st of October 2006:
"I am not doing this for revenge though it looks like one but I am doing this because this is the only way to make you fall, make you come to my senses. You hate me now but deep in you heart, you will see the truth.. And no matter how hurtful you are feeling I will walk beside you and you won't be alone"

I FUCKING HELL DO NOT NEED YOU TO HELP ME FALL. Ever heard of unnatural death and natural death? Same concept here. UNNATURAL FALL and NATURAL FALL. And come on, COME TO MY SENSES?!?! I DO NOT NEED YOUR FUCKING HELP. Just deal with it BOY. You can't accept the fact that I AM WHO I AM NOW. You cant accept the change. You can't accept the fact that I AM MOVING ON. You can't accept the fact that I am ABLE TO LEAVE YOU. AGAIN, You can't accept the fact that I DO NOT LOVE YOU ANYMORE. Just admit it, as much as you said that you care for me... blah blah blah... The underlying statement is that... : YOU ARE JUST JEALOUS THAN I AM ENJOYING MY LIFE WITH SOOOO MANY GUY FRIENDS. And why?!?! THEY ARE GUYS!

You wanna be MY FRIEND. Just be la. But you are no one to CONTROL my life. I choose the path I want to take. NO ONE can stop me. Just do me a favour by stepping aside la. And yes remember this saying.. " Na De Qi, Fang De Xia" In a relationship basis, it means, when you have the courage to love the person, when you have the courage to get into a relationship with the person, when it's time for you to let go, be graceful and step aside. If you wanna settle things with me... SETTLE WITH ME. DON'T GET ANY OTHER PERSON INVLOVED!

FUCK OFF!

And yes, remember my pretty face! (:

-I snipped my blood vessels last night. Just to see how much I bled