fucked up!

As I said, Ive so many issues I would like to touch on. Issues that have been affecting my life in a way or so.

• Desperate guys
• My confession to daddy Dickson
• My blog

• Desperate guys

Let’s start of with despos, Im not who I was. I cant blame guys for taking my number cause I do not have the "Im attached" sign above my head. But I know for sure certain guys are so damn fucking irritating that they still insist and persist for my number even though they were told that I’m attached. FUCK IT! Pathetic faggots! I know la. I’m soooo pretty. Readers, you guys can puke and laugh with mockery. But, for all I know, AT LEAST, I know, I look lookable and I’m blessed with a fucking good height. People used to say Ive got nice eyes. (From daddy Dickson and Ruyun!) There were two ladies who were sitting outside MOS burger and commented that Ive got nice legs. I know la. So sexy right? No matter how I look, as pretty as SOME guys think I am. Im sorry, Im not some kind of fucking bitch you think you can fuck around with. Neither am I someone you think that I’m so cheap that I give other guy's my number. AND to fucking hell think that I’m fucking dishonest to my dearest daddy that I love solely. This was what happened at seletar bus stop 1 to 2 weeks back.

Steven: Hi, xiao jie (lady), I’m Steven and I would like to make friends with you.
Clara: ohh.. hi..
Steven: Where are you going now?
Clara: home
Steven: where do you stay?
Clara: Don't know
Steven: Do you mind making friends with me?
I looked at him, and said,
Clara: no. I've a boyfriend.
Steven: My handphone number is, 9………
I looked at him again.
Steven: call me la. My hp number is 9………
And I thought, good, you are dead, once I get your number, and then I’ll give daddy Dickson your number and screw you upside down.

And he left. Fuck.

And last Sunday! That fucking guy msged me. And when daddy Dickson talked to him, he claims that I'm dishonest towards my boyfriend!

What the fuck?!?!?! Kan ni na bei chao chee bye!! chao lan jiao!!!

What's your fucking problem.?!?!?! Chee bye! You are just fucking jealous of my daddy cause you can't find a beauty like me?

I'm still heated over what he said. I am dishonest?!?! If I am, I would not have tried calling daddy Dickson went you first approached me. Daddy was just too busy that he could not answer his phone.

He said that I was dishonest?

What the fuck?!?!?!?!

Number 1: Don't try to break me and daddy up! Cause it will never happen! -he may be angry but he knows it's not my fault and he knows that I love him.


Number 2: Don't get numbers from a girl who is attached.

AND I've another scenario. Yesterday, this guy call Max messaged me in Friendster. Here is the message.

From:
Max
Date:
Date/Time: 5/28/2006 4:06 am

Subject:
hi
Message:
hiMessage: Hi.my name is max would like to makefriend withu .I am a nice ,low temper and,look young andnice guyI stay north wish tomake friend with u..if no mind u can sms me98574300 or call me ok? if not ok we still canmessage through there or..my emailmaxchin123@yahoo.com thank

And this is what I received just a minute ago.

From:
IvAN
Date/Time: 5/29/2006 2:03 am


Subject:
InTrODuCe
Message:
HelLo Care To INTrOduCe. mY nAMe iS iVaN AndTiS yR 18. DO yU hAVe MsN MEssEnGer. iF yuHAVe CaN i HAve YuR EmaiL AdDreSs And iFpOSSiBlE Can i HAVe YUr Hp NUmBEr iF yuHAVe Hp. ThANk YoU :)

!@#$%$#@#$%$#@#$%@ WHAT THE FUCK?!?!

Are these guys blind or what? Cannot see my friendster's status is "married"? I know, they are definitely blind.

MARRIED

What the fuck?!?! Want to find girls, go else where to find. I’m not some kind of idiot or slut you can approach anytime you like!

And in the future, see whether the girl is attached a not before you fucking approach her.

• My confession to Daddy Dickson

I know I've appeared to be very unreasonable and sensitive nowadays. I'm terribly sorry. As what I have always told you. I'm afraid. Afraid of falling deeper. Maybe it's the past mistake you made that I've become like this and that you have to pay for it. However, as much as I've changed, from bad to worst, all I can say I that I've never love someone as much I love you before. And I've never love you this much in this entire relationship. Maybe it's just time I need to curb my temper. Give me some time.

• My blog

I've been having a lot of anonymous taggers at my tag board. Since you guy(s) love the attention soooo much. I shall honour you with the privilege. As I always emphasized, my blog is all about my free expression. If there's anything I could do for these taggers to shut their fucking gap. I'll. If you guys think that you have something nice or not nice to say, just go ahead. But for fucking nuts, dun fucking start a bloody war here. If you think that you cannot entertain yourself, I suggest you to go watch some fucking pornography. Cause you guys are stepping on my nerves. Just don't let me catch who you are. Really… don’t let me catch you…

scratched @ 11.18pm

LOADS OF ISSUES! butt.... lazy to blogggg....

alright! i feel sooo lazy man! I just got back from my modelling evaluation. ohh man.. it was good? hahas. lemme recap what happen on friday...........

On friday, Ms Siti brought Dong, Kim, Daddy and me to marina bay. and we failed in the fucking pranks! damn! LOLs. i feel so lazy. We started to "flip here and dere" as though we were in the circus.. you guy will get what i mean when i post the pictures up ONCE I GET THEM! *hint hint* Got the hint bitches? wahhahaha

YESTERDAY! We had the x-capade race. It was so damn tiring man! More than three really went all out! Speaking of that, my whole body is still aching! We were definitely pushed to the limit! It was so tiring! My team was in the top 3. but damn! we wasted too much time at check point 4, which was the crossword puzzle check point! fuck. all of us were soooo.... unprepared? That was then we started to slack boy! Whatever it is, whether we win or lose, it's the experience that matters. Cause I knew we DID support one another no matter what right wei lun and aisyah? heee...

W15F's x-capade team!

From Top Left: Kelvin, Wang Qian, Lucinda, Sabita, Diana, Cindy, Clara(that's me!) Wei Lun, Oswind

From Second Row- Left: Ju, Shahirah, Dinee, Aisyah, Ashlee

Last Row from left: Wandi, Asyraf, Shawn and finally.. JENNY!

and finally.... my modelling evaluation day has come! Dong, Daddy, Yu Pei and I went to town and I was so damn fucking stressed PLUS the condition of my legs... tsk tsk tsk. so painful! awww.... Daddy took a video of the whole thing. I'm considering whether I wanna put it up here... like so pai seh right? LOLs. Whatever it is, I had loads of fun! I guess I'll end here for tonight! I so dead tired. I CAN'T MAKE MY DADDY WAIT! HE'S GONNA PAT ME TO SLEEP... wahahahahahahaha!!!!


Before I go... These are the pictures LAST SUNDAY! ( a few only la. lols. )



He's doing the limbo!!! Thanks Daniel Ong!
who's feet?Which belong to me?
I make the picture beautiful! wahahaha!
Yu Pei and Dong!
Even guys do better in acting cute compared to me! so sad...
fail la! straight at my face! a big fat F!

THIS ONE IS GOOD RIGHT? I'm begging for a pass please!

My daddy's waiting for me! till then. tatas!

scratched @ 11.33pm

A part of 26/05/06

oh maaaannnnn!!!

i'm soooooooooooooooooo tired man! I've RP's amazing race tml... i'll blog. I promise!

i'm feel sooo lazy.....

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Republic Poly- W15F

Yea! School's ALWAYS fun knowing that there will be many FASHION DISATERS. err... I may could be one of them. Well, This was what a lovely classmate of mine wore yesterday. (As shown below)
Notice the soccer socks? It just dont go right? Err... i think she wants to form a female soccer team? Or MAYBE, she's no despo to be a jappie? Have a good laugh man! wahahahahahahahahahahahahhahahahahahaha!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! okays, more updates soon!

scratched @ 1.50pm

gone.

I'm listening to Rihanna's Unfaithful. It's such a beautiful song. Remind me of what happen last September to December. Download that song. Those who knew what happened, you'll get what I mean! There are so many things I wanna talk about.

• similar BGR problems I USED TO HAVE.
• my temper + my class, W15F
• supersumo

I guess these are the three main things I wanna talk about. I guess before we go there, let me upload some pictures me, Dong, Yu Pei and Daddy took last Sunday. It was indeed happenning! LOLs.

This is what happen at MOS Bugis,

He's yawning after all that shopping and walking! Stop that retarded face! You are not scaring me but making my tummy ache!
Whey! u busybody! see what see?!
Stop scratching!

I'm soooooooooooooooooo IN LOVE!
lalalallalala!
sleep tight okays!

OUR COMPETITION!
GO GO GO!
*muacks* love ya >3
STOP SLEEPING FOR ONCE~

wahahahaha! my skeleton face!
I LOVE THIS PICTURE!
stop eyeing on my food!
nah... give u mum mum!

MORE CAM WHORING!

STOP GAYING!
IT'S MY TURN!
DUN MAKE ME LAUGH!
THERE YOU GO... why must make me laugh?nice shot yu pei! my husband!

At we took neoprints!

Well, Yu Pei say I never act cute but act INNOCENT! ya la! I know! I suck in acting cute la! In the train....
They love monkey-ing around!

Why you suddenly appear sia? Go away! It's me and yu pei's photo!
This is the result of my face for making me angry!


STOP THAT LA! SPOILER!


OUR ZAI TUI! wahahahaha..... favouite!! >33

Pinch HIM HARD!

Alright, I've receive some complains that I've not blogging frequently. A million to my regular readers! ( Although no one reads this blog of mine... can't be compared to her- xiaxue huh?)

As stated above, there are 3 issues I wanna touch on, I guess this entry will be freaking long!

• BGR prob that everyone around me seems to be facing

First of all, I don't want to make myself sound like a love counsellor. But I just wanna shared what I used to experience before. I have a couple of friends who are going through this posessiveness in their boyfriend and they can't tolerate it any further. As much as you make him believe that you really love him a lot, he still seem to refrain you from your freedom giving you the feeling that he doesn't trust you. It's NOT trust. It's more like feeling gggrrrrrreeeeennnn! JEALOUSY! that's the word man! I know girls can't stand your own guy to be jealous. But it's really time we place ourselves in their shoes and think. WHY? Won't it be the same if they have girl-friends around them? I guess, time is all it takes.

One friend said that she envy me. She's envy for what I have. A perfect love life. I told her, "It's not bulid within a da, overnight, It took us a year. The route to almost perfection is never easy.."

• my temper + my class W15F

I feel that I get worked out very easily nowadays. I guess it's time that I get a hold of myself. I'm undergoing stress everyday. With MORE and MORE problems to solve and justified everyday. And with that kind of stress level. hahas. I DONT THINK I'LL DO WELL. Cause, I HAVE NOT PERFORM up to my potential. I guess the only faci that sees through my potential is Mr Ridwan. He said this, "But as you rightly pointed out, I still see you falling short of your potential. Show me your best, show me your committment (in terms of focus in all three meetings and ability to bring your team-mates into the picture.)" As I promised, I'll DO IT! and I'LL. Cause I won't want to disappoint myself with Bs and Cs. FUCK! Cs. I got my first D from the fucking Basic Science relief teacher. I guess I ought to have more self-discipline.

When I'm "hot", I'll get impatient, and I'll feel like screaming. For instance, I was doing my presentation yestrday and it was gotta do with the fucking laser pen. KAN NI NA BEI CHAO CHEE BYE! So many questions! so stress! and I almost blurt these words out.. " fuck, i think you guys still have an issue on this product. if you being the customer, and u feel that it is not safe. you can always don't buy. and today's problem is focused more on the brainstorming skills. not much on the product." but Ju was like, "Clara chill." that word "chill" simply snapped me back to reality. And I had a tough fight inside me asking myself to chill and relax . When we finished presenting, I was very buai song. Oswind was REALLY TALKING too much. And I was like "shut up!" and he told faci that it was a personal attack! And I was like.. "wtf?!?! fucking personal attack?!?!?!!?" kan ni na bei chao chee bye! what makes you fucking hell think that it's a personal attack? you DUN EVEN RESPECT THE GROUP WHO WAS PRESENTING! Maybe you can't take it when I was making fun of the "dance" and if you think i'm a fucking RACIST, I WOULD NOT HAVE A BF WHOSE MUM IS A SRI LANKAN! Shawn then asked him whether he is too despo for a fucking A. And I was like. that's a good shot! straigh gun shot at the face!

Whatever it is, I feel that I should have some control over my temper. and KEEP COOL! err.. AND to live up my potential, and also of a BITCH!!

Last but not least,

• supersumo

let me go smoke first.. i need a break before this. back. okays. let's continue,

Maybe, you had soe mis-conceptions with my previous entry or entires. That NEW close friend was not meant for you. It was for my new classmate. As you asked, "do you feel that we are drifting apart." and I said "no" and come to think about it. I still think the answer is no. Maybe you do feel it. I'm terribly sorry if you have to feel that way. I know, U have been helping me up A LOT for the past 1 year plus. I know you understand. Understand what is going in this family of mine. And I guess this is the only thing I've to set my mind on. I know that we seldom talk, seldom catch up. And I feel that I've been very selfish towards you. I understand your fear of me having new friends and fear that we'll go through the same cycle. Well, blame it on my poor time management. Things have been hectic since I started school. Too much time taken. Then again, thank you for stretching those extra miles for me. I promise i'll try to re-arrange everything once I've settle down in school (in showing my real potential). i promise.

Alright. time for me to start painting my nails, preparing for more cam-whoring! tml is sunday! modelling! yea man babey!

scratched @ 7.43pm