My thoughts that guys and girls ought to know

Life exaplme: I just called darling to asked whether he's still at home. He said "no" and i told him to enjoy himself and hang up.
And i'm waiting for him to get home b4 i indulge in my sleep.

For Girls: I know, you girls may asked many questions. "Why is he out so late?" "Why don't you sleep instead of waiting for him?" "Why must you do this? There are other solutions." Yes, they are many solutions. But different couples have different ways of handling matters of the heart. As the saying goes, "nan ren bu huai, nu ren bu ai". Indeed, so if u have choose ure partner to be a "huai nan ren" u gotta be prepare for it too.. Guys are guys. They want fun. Yes. But sometimes, they feel they women are a pain in the ass. We need to understand how they feel too rather than expecting them to understand how we feel all the time. Yes, women are BORN to be pampered. But, compromising give u happiness. As a lady at our teenage years, if you know your parents are uptight with ya, and u can't hang out with ure guy late at night. Go home. simple reason. "If ure guy loves you, he would rather you go home even though he really wants you to hang out with him, he'll ask u to go home. Cause he don't want u to bear the consequences." And if ure guy have a "history" OR are mixing around with people who had "history", i know, ure even more worried. It's common for girls to be paranoid. But trust.. this is the keyword.. it is all that matters. If he promise you that he won't do things you do not want him to do, if he loves you, he won't. So, why fret about it? Don't make curfews or should i say, create curfews in ure own hands, it's simply just unfair for him. He feels uptight. Especially if he is doing that for the LOVE. simply place ureself in his shoes...
Example: you are permitted to go out late at night.. just for ONE NIGHT. and your guy wants u to go home.. 1. How would you answer to ure friends? 2. ure friends will say.. "nah he doesn't love you.. cause he don't understand that this is ure one and only night out.." and as hard as u try to convince ure friends, the image is stuck right in the head. 3. It makes you feel uneasy when u know ure curfew is approaching..
You'll definitely feel fucked up right? try maybe alternate days whereby ure guy can go out late at night and be home early. Then he can plan ... when he can go out with his friends LATE AT NIGHT. Don't let him feel tight. Let him breathe. Be UNDERSTANDING... Alternatively, be like me, (hee..so BHB huh?) trust that he'll be safe and that u'll wait for him to call or msg u when he reach home. And of course, he have to do his part by complying to his promise that he's a good boy. =)

To Guys: HEY! NEVER..NEVER..NEVER..take a girl's concern for granted, she gives you a curfew and stuff.. don't frown. if you don't like it. TALK. TALK. find the right place, right time. girls are never TOO unreasonable. they do that cause they love you. they worry. talk it out. suggest other solutions.. tell her how you feel. ask her to understand. DEMAND her to understand. She have to. It's ure part to make her understand if she doesn't. Believe me, as stubborn as she appears to be, she'll definitely think about it when she's not with you.

Untouchable

hey! I'M BACK! It's new year's EVE!! and i'm all charged up and ready to blog. i even got the right playlist for the right mood. I just had my shower and just finish settling down. I just came back from pasir ris. And i guess u guys know who i was with and where i was. LOL. it's freaking obvious. We went to downtown and whitesands. just chilling out u know. It feels that i've never seen him for months! gOsH! and when u finally get to see him. WhaO! relieve. that's love.. hmm...

alcoholic!

hey, i'm in for blogging again. LOL. i cooked laska today. very cool. i was drinking too. whiskey water, coke + whiskey and vodka with green apple juice! LOL. i tell ya. it's freaking happening! i got a lil' drunk. my apologies to those people that i disturb. i do not know why i did that. but i just feel like doing. I'm crazy. yeah! why did i drink? Maybe because i'm feeling freaking vexed for no particular reason? i know. a BITCH! maybe that's really what a BITCH WANT! LOL! oh ya, i went shopping yesterday! It was freaking cool. Dear met me in town. for the like first time? just because he wanna see me... AwWw... how sweet is that. I'm so freaking touched! LOL. anywayz, we had our usual dinner at subway, met Amos and his cousins at lucky plaza, slack here and there, smoke here and there. long time since i had that kind of life. and that means.... MORE CLUBBING! lol They were cool ppl. I went back to pasir ris with dear, and we took loads of photos! and they were nice! check out my friendster! LOL. till then..

it's still haunting me..

It's been 3 years. Eversince 2002 ended, i've always end the year reminising what happen back in 2002, opening my lil' "europe box", silly things that i kept etc. Some people tried convincing me that i've not let go. But, in actual fact, i know it's the memories that i've kept. It's just fresh in my mind. Well, i just bought a new photo album to re-organise my photos. I'll keep them well. There are some questions that were posted to me by "Ms Someone". And i'm glad that i can answer them finally after 3 long years.

1. Why are you still so semtimental about it?
Because, it's just me. I mean, u'll never forget what happen. It happen in a foreign country and it's the first time u leave the country without ure family. Of course, the people around you at that time leave a huge impact on you.

2. People around you? OR do you mean PERSON WITH you?
okay. FINE. yes indeed. HE MADE (read that? made! PAST TENSE) A DEEP AND LARGE impact in such a short period of 2 months. i know. But i'm sorry to say that those didn't linger on when i found the one i really loved few months back. It's different. I'm not like in the past where i just go around falling into love traps, to forget THAT person. HE'S HISTORY.

3. okay. but don't you hate him?
Yes. I DID, but not now. it just felt like i knew him so well. But now, it's just like two strangers walking down the streets. I don't treat him like one of those enemies of mine. But it's that what he did that time freeze the love, melt it to hatred, then freeze it back to the "neutral mode" again. And it's no shame to claim that he was the first person that taught me the "numbness of love"

4. What about fencing?
Yes, I told you that "yes, he will recognised what i've done for him. the sacrifices etc. time will tell blah blah blah.." but now. it doesn't matter anymore, because, i don't see a need to. even if he realise it now, i'm sorry. too late. I'm taken. part of the D & C company i must say. It's his loss. I even told you that " fencing will keep us alive.." blah blah.. that was pure bullshit. It was the clara who was blindly in love. So devoted that she was blinded by facts. And for now, I'm pursuing MY DREAM! A dream that i always wanted. I'm doing it for myself. no one else. and i'm outta here!

Tell me what a BITCH wants..

Tell me man, WHAT A BITCH WANTS? Maybe some things are really meant to be. I deleted my previous blog due to some reasons. I don't like some things hat are happening now, so, i would rather prevent them from happening than to think of a solution when it happens. People call me selfish. Yes, i am I save my own skin b4 anything else. Cause i think if i don't save myself, no one will, my defination of a BITCH is a Babe that is In Total Control of Herself. And i hereby warn people i don't like to back off. I'm telling you, I ain't gonna be Ms Nice anymore. Just don't piss me off further. I really mean it. Cause if see that again. You know who you are. And if there's any case that i see you with my love ones... You'll hear MY NOISE not me keeping mum. Cause i'm an unreasonable bitch. get it? unreasonable! that's how i'm gonna be.