The 1st April: Fate

Mae's Awakening
When I close my eyes to this paradox place,
ill fly away far away from here,
I’ll get away and dream,
dream of you,
when its all said and done,
and the night has come,
ill disappear,
take flight on the wind of wishing you where here,
fading light like a star whose life has been gone for years

and I'll fly,
fly across the sky,
and I’ll leave,
leave it all behind,
if you’d be here,
here with me tonight,
I’ll be fine,
I’ll be fine,
I’ll be fine

I’ll disappear,
take flight on the wind of wishing you where here,
fading light like a star whose life has been gone for years

and I'll fly,
fly across the sky,
and I’ll leave,
leave it all behind,
if you’d be here,
here with me tonight,
I’ll be fine,
I’ll be fine,
I’ll be fine…



Well, April's Fool wasn't nice for me today. And I know that every April's Fool wouldn't be the same anymore as today's memory will forever be emblazoned in my mind. Sometimes, I wish I didn't live off today. It sucks having to fall back to ground zero again. Tearing everywhere. At that moment, those stares didn't matter again. Those flashbacks are so bitter. The only comforting thing was hearing you saying that you miss me. And see you replying a "yes" in that question I asked. Maybe you may call me stupid that I still have hopes. Maybe I still do. Maybe I don't. All I know is that, I still can't get out of this shithole because...

I REALLY DO NOT KNOW.

IT'S FRUSTRATING AND SADDENING.

Right now, I will get to feel you as long as I want to till that faithful day. Sweetie, I know that you can sense his presence. I know. I wonder how you would look like. Cos' part of me is excited to see you. But I know I can't. Time doesn't allow me too. I'm sorry sweetie. You will get to sense him again. I promise.



Tomorrow would be HAIR PREP FOR HAIRSHOW, AND ZOUK WITH BUTTOCKS!