RESIGNATION

I HEREBY ANNOUNCED...

I OFFICIALLY QUIT BLOGGING FOR THE TIME BEING!

TOO MANY THINGS TOOOO DOOOO!!!!


ARGHS!

TILL THEN...

when you SNIPPED IT APART!

I am disappointed. DISAPPOINTED!!! VERY DISAPPOINTED!!!

Thanks for this Shuang Er, But I guess it didn't help. Nothing can make me smile now.





Yes, I know. Of all the things that happen. You don't feel secure. No other guy who is sane will feel secure when he is with such a person with such a history.

It's okay. It was heart breaking to hear what you said this morning. You have no idea how much you mean to me. Just at that moment, I wanted to break down. I have never love someone that much in such a short time. I know, I AM A SCREWED UP BITCH!

I never know how much I mean to you? Maybe you do not know how much you mean to me as well.


YES. I KNOW. I FAILED TO UNDERSTAND YOU.


I didn't know that we could be so fragile. I don't blame you. I know where I came from. But, if you are afraid of being hurt in the future, pls let me know. I don't blame you if you wanna re-consider your decision that you thought of last night. I know I AM BAD.

But I just wanna let you know that you are the first person I will feel the pinch if I lose you. Thinking back, I felt like a heartless bitch dumping people, BUT I KNOW I HAD REASONS FOR FALLING FOR ANOTHER GUY AND DUMPING THEM. If I have to pay for what I did in the past by losing you. I AM AS GOOD AS DEAD.

I guess we are loving each other too much.

-Smoke myself away

SOUR is WRONG!

hahahas!!! As my readers noticed, all my posts' title are all so fucking random!



I was surfing the net when I came across this common thing... "People who lack of originality". Most guys use tools to blow away their girlfriend's heart. hahahas!!! I was searching some webpages, Here's an entire list of webbies from the search engine!

http://search.yahoo.com/search?p=poetry&fr=yfp-t-501&toggle=1&cop=mss&ei=UTF-8&vc=&fp_ip=SG

http://search.yahoo.com/search?p=love+poetry&rs=0&fr2=rs-top&toggle=1&cop=mss&ei=UTF-8&fp_ip=SG&fr=yfp-t-501

CLASSIC YEA?!



hahas. some guys are practically BRAINLESS. They think that having bombastic words in a verse written can touch a girl's deepest inside. I mean, DUH! People who are in love, they get like "WoW! That's like so AMAZING!" that kind of thing like... SOOOOOO EASILY. MY POINT BEING... it's retarded copying and pasting some other people's poems and giving it to another. It's like so super dumb la! Where is the sincerity? Ohh.. it would be crap if anyone say that finding the poems are part of sincerity.



THAT'S PURE BULLSHIT!!!



Wanna be sincere... Don't half half la! If you love a person, then show the full sincerity la! AND... you do not need to bring someone to an expensive place to have dinner to make the person happy. SIMPLE THINGS : That's what I learn. If you really love the person, no matter what the person do, even the slightest thing will make you happy!



I am glad that Baby Terence is just simple and I am so happy. So far, he's the only person that touch my deepest inside. I don't cry that easily at the slightest things that someone do for me, but for him, ARGHS! He fucking hell make me tear at the slightest thing he did or say.

Something is wrote in Pilokee on the 20th of Dec 2006,

Far in this place,
Where time has no part,
Nostalgia requisited,
Sweetest memories deep from my heart

From nocturnal hibernation we waked,
Side by side in each's arms,
Into the distance we saw the day start,
Over the densly misted grasslands

Throughout the day we played,
Guiding natives of this foriegn land
We painted, ate and took long puffs,
Cooled ourselves in the refreshing lake

When curtains of dusk were drawn,
Warm were we with each other,
Diamonds strewn across the sky,
Those treasured moments we'll never leave

Deeper into our lives,
If fate might somehow allow
Back into this memory lane we shall walk,
And with a smile we will recall

And ironically, MTV is showing It ends tonight by The All American Rejects.

Better stop praising him already la! Later his head grow too big. Then he don't need a plane to fly already. He can jolly use his head to fly!



hahahas!!!



Apparently, my mum is thinking too far about us! Talk to me about marriage somemore! OMG! I just had to tell my mum to.. "SLOW DOWN!" SCARY!



KIM TOO! (Quote) " He's the first boyfriend that I can get along with so well. And furthermore, he's the most handsome of all I've seen. If you can last with that person for one and a half years, I don't see why you and Terence can't. Maybe one and a half lifetime? No no. cannot! Must be one and a half century! Don't let go of him! He's a good catch!" (Unquote)



Yes la! Everyone singing praises of Terence! ARGHS! What about me?! hahahahas!!!



Oh ya.... I got so many comments about my flaws on my face! hahahas!!!

Many comments and I guess I have to throw my thoughts with this link! She speak everything that I need to talk about! (:

http://xiaxue.blogspot.com/2003/08/quite-often-i-get-comments-like-this.html

Alright, gonna cook lunch for baby! He's coming in an hour's time! =)





-Simple things are the best things you can find.

when apples turn blue

It has been quite a nice week for me... Received an invitation to Cafe Del Mar! ARGHS! Kinda cool place I guess. The place opens 24 hours during weekends. Unfortunately, I didn't go cos i needa do my braces, meet Kim and I was pretty tired.
I always meet baby and Leonard in the morning for breakfast at Macs. Sometimes, I get to take the same bus as them IF i manage to wake up early. Well, on Thursday.. this was what happen in the bus! WHA! FANTASIC! Love cultivation in a SBS bus. People of the same gender somemore! hahahas! I think love cultication in Singapore bus fucking hell OWN Thailand's Service Learning Trip BIG TIME! wahahahahahahahas!!!

Ms Kimmilicious came over to school to fetch me off and accompany me for my dental! She bought a cute cig box for me! wahahahahads!!! Thanks licious!
Mummy gave baby and I GUCCI HANDPHONE STRAPS!!! GAWD! It costs like $110 EACH!!! hahahas. Didn't know mummy would indulge in such couple couple stuff!!! wahahahaha!!!

Wonder what Kim is doing.. hmmm...

After my dental, we had some ang moh food!
Ms Kim had MIX GRILL!
Baby had SIRLION STEAK!

I had CHICKEN CUTLET!
When she was looking through some stuff from my lappy. Pretty cool yea Kim?!
The mess that we made. Err.. not really a mess after all!

There goes the both licious cam-whoring!

I was acting stupid! And I guess he dun wanna take photos with me anymore! =(
I shall be a good girl! hahahas! Take one nice shot okay?

Kim and Terence are the most horrible people yesterday la! eh.. but no... both of them are not the most horrible people of that day... it was someone else...

arghs!!! DIGRESSION!!!

What I meant was that both of them were talking about my stuff in primary school and apparently both of them just talk non-stop from judo to nursing! ARGHS! BUT... at least, that's a good thing. At least both of them can talk and stuff. I am soooo glad! =)

-I miss you many many many many many many many many many many many many many many many many many many many many many many many many many many many many many many many many many many many many many many!!!!!!!! WAHAHAHAHAHAS~

When it becomes more than love

Chains after chains,
Puzzles after puzzles,
Many thoughts and memories deluged in,
It never dawn upon me that
Those words seem so redundant now.



I'm right here at this same setting again,
Tears of pain filled my eyes,
Though I've tried so hard to parry those,
It just countered me with more.



I tried stopping those pondering thoughts,
But all I felt was emptiness,
In that light, in that moment,
I asked myself if I'm loving you too much



Maybe as what we first agreed,
"If fate might somehow allow..",
We'll see how much and far this can bring us to,
I love you baby.



-It's human's nature to be over-sensitive.

BITCH FIT ALERT!!!

Please do take note before you read this post: CONTENT HERE MAY BE OFFENSIVE TO CERTAIN PEOPLE. THAT'S BECAUSE.. I have to blog about things in GENERAL! If readers think that they are not up for it, please fucking hell close this fucking window! *evil smiles* hehhehhehhehhehhehh!!!! Don't give me the crap that you are CURIOUS. JUST FUCK OFF IF YOU ARE NOT UP FOR THIS POST. (:

• I hate it when some guys just give fucking hell false hopes.

This post is related to my dearest licious licious, Kimmilicious.
That fucking bastard!!! ARGHS! First thing first, that's not a way to treat my poor licious licious!!! *snorts* You fucking hell lead her on and on, brought her to some event and fucking hell ended the fucking night with a fucking hell fucking attitude problem?! So.. WHAT'S YOUR FUCKING PROBLEM?! Don't want her, Don't lead her on la! Don't give her false hopes! (Sorry Kim, this is really blunt, but I know you get what I mean) For fuck sake, even though given the years of her being her childhood friend, you just throw her aside like that. If you bloody hell expect her to be sad about this, go suicidual, and do silly things, I AM SOOOOO BLOODY HELL FUCKING SORRY. SHE WILL BE FINE AS LONG AS SHE IS WITH ME! I suggest you better go and screw your own fucking balls. YOU KNOW WHY?! Cos' your fucking ego is larger than your fucking balls. Maybe, larger than how much oxygen your lungs can take in! hmmm... I guess, my dear licious can simply strip you off her friend's list. *smiles* And if you come crawling back to her, you hell better gotta go through ME FIRST! *evil laughters*

• NOBLE PEOPLE

I am sooooo blessed to have SO MANY NOBLE PEOPLE AROUND ME! hahahas! Let's talk about certain people who can handle break ups! *smiles* Some people go sucidual! Some people just let it go and they wish you all the best. Some people just do the same but stab you from the back, and they don't mean what they say. Some people stick to you like a leech and hope that you will change your mind. OR this is CLASSIC! Some people just try so hard to gain sympathy from someone else especially their friends. OR THIS IS EVEN MORE CLASSIC!!! THEY SHARE THE BURDEN WITH YOU!!! What is all these about?

If anyone comes across such people, don't bother getting pissed over it. Just sit down, cool, chill and just move on. Because, it's such a waste of time bothering about such people. Just ignore such people. Yea Jovanna? There bound to be FUCKERS. So... just take like sweet and slow. No worries babe! (:

And I guess, that's all about my bitch fit now. err... I will be hosting the 1st Silver Ribbon (Singapore) Project with Mr Terence! (: 13th Feb 2007! hahaahahahahahas! Such a good news! Wanna get the tickets, let me know okay? $50 per ticket!
Ms Porsche very cute!!! She asked me and baby to be her emcee for her event! (:

And she just had to make me sooooo freaking happy by saying that she is quite excited to have a perfect couple to be her emcee. AND she said baby is soooo handsome! hahahas! True True! I love his eyes. err... Terence, I can blackmail you now. You know what I mean! *evil laughters* hahahahahahahas!!!!

-"Yes baby, I said that you are my life."

POPEYES!

Cool! Today was madness!!! Had sooooo much freaking fun! Woke up and had baby beside me! We lazed around till like 11am. hahas. We were talking and hugging him when I said this... "how I wish that we could be like this forever!" And then he looked at me and said, " you used the word forever." I was dumbfounded myself. It was the first time that I use the word, "forever" in love. And he kept asking me whether I regretted saying that word and I said noooooooo! hahas. That silly boy bought me breakfast again! *smile* We went to back to school for the last day of RP Open House 2007. We went to Changi Airport again after the Open House! We had Popeyes!!!

Buttermilk Biscuits with a chunk of mashed potato on the top!

It was shiok! Sooooo much better than KFC. Thanks for bringing me there baby!

MEMORY LANES!!! : The places we were before we left for Bangkok on the 12th.

This is the place where me, Draycott and Terence were while taking our lunch beforw we took the flight! I remembered having Prawn Noodles and Fruit Punch!

And as usual, we went to the viewing mall and see planes! That's a 747! (Right a not Mr Pilot?)


And.. I think I am starting to love planes! I am getting interested in them! I learnt about the... ADF (Artifical Direction Finder) and some other stuff in which I am soooo bloody lazy to type down! Actually, it's PRETTY LATE!!! I wanna hit the sack like now! WITH MR TERENCE T-SHIRT WITH ME!!! (: I know... sounds pervert.. but I AM A PERVERT right Terence? (:

ARGHS!!!TMR GOT MEETING SOMEMORE!!!

- Forever we shall be.

Republic Poly Open House

Well, I am sooo like tired! (: I am lying on my bed blogging with baby Terence teaching the lil' monsters english and mathematics!

ARGHS!!!

I am such a whining bitch! I wanna do my manicures and pedicures like NOW!

nvm. I'll get my bitch fit signal over to baby and he will tame it all down! (: That's because.. he is staying over tonight! Then we will go to school tmr together!

He came early this morning again to wake me up! sweetsssss~~ Mummy was like... "Don't wake Clara up yet..." and before I knew it... she threw a toy snake onto me and it practically scare the wits out of me! I was throwing my tantrums! And when I opened my eyes slightly, I saw baby there!

ARGHS!

That mum just had to embarrass me in front of my boyfriend!

Well, RP open house was really fun though the T-shirt sucks la! I only love the imprints on the t-shirt!

We went to collect free ice cream! Played some pilot thingy. Who else's favourite? hahahas. He look soooo serious! It's just him I guess! (:

We went to Jalan Kayu for dinner yesterday. We were very very full.. and... then... we went back home... forrrr... SOME...

BLACK BEAN SOUP!!!

AND THIS AFTERNOON... I HAD TO WEAR THE PATHETIC QI PAO!!! nvm la. I think I look gorgeous in it even if i keep complaining that I look fat!!!
AND LAST BUT NOT LEAST, I MISS HIM WITH THAT WET HAIR LOOK!!! SO BANGKOK AND PILOKEE CAN!!!! (:

-Time never seems to be enough.